Sunday, December 28, 2008
I just got my second request to use one of my Blog Designs! I was excited by the first one, well, the first one that wasn't from a friend...lol and with this second one, I am sooooo 'Snoopy Happy'!! That means I am almost ready to do the Snoopy Dance! I sooo love creating!! It is more than my passion, it's my lifeline, my sanity, my outlet! For someone that can't even draw a stickman, I think I am doing ok. LOL There is this inner artist inside me that has always, always struggled to get out! I would dearly love to be formerly trained but, I know that is a dream that just won't come true for me. I will be satisfied with learning from all the other wonderful PSPers and Scrappers and Designers out there and I know that I am blessed by the knowledge they share with us to. Thank you!
So, if you want to check out the designer who will soon be using my 2009 blog layout, you can visit her here:
Thank you for the honor, Lisa!
If you would like to see more of my blog designs, you can find them at: http://mentalimagez.blogspot.com/
They are also on my other blogs so, feel free to find those links on this page and visit them. Who knows, you might even find yourself addicted like us!
Blessings and love....
Friday, December 26, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
I asked him for one gift this Christmas. He has been unemployed for a while now and his 'wife' got her pink slip this week. I know how difficult things are. So, I asked him for one gift and told him that it wouldn't cost a thing, money wise, just in his time. I asked him to go to the Christmas Eve service at Church. At first, he was angry, as he always is when I bring up 'that place'. He refuses to talk about it and become biligerent. It breaks my heart. I very calmly told him that this was all I wanted for Christmas and that if it was as bad as he thought it was going to be, he would never have to come again. He finally, finally told me that he would think about it.
Tonight he called me. He was at the grocery store buying some baking supplies. They didn't have money for gifts so, he was going to make some cookies to give us, his family. There was a family in front of him, or so I thought he said as his phone was braking up a bit, a man, his wife and 2 children. Perhaps they were behind him and it was just a single man in front, I am not sure. The man took out his credit card and paid for his groceries. He had been 'playing' with my Grandson a bit while getting rung up. After he paid for his own groceries, he looked at my son. I know the look he must have seen...the 'what the F*** are you lookin at' look. He gestured to the cashier, leaned in and whispered something. He swiped his card again. He then turned and held out his hand to my son saying, "Merry Christmas, you won't need any money for your bill. I picked it up for you." My son said he was in shock, didn't think he heard right, asked him, "What? What did you say?" My daughter in law said, "Oh my God, oh, thank you, thank you..." stammering. My son said all he could say, and only in a whisper, was thank you and Merrry Christmas. With a smile, the man walked away paying 100.00$ for my son and his families groceries.
He also told me during this phone conversation that yes, he was going to Christmas Eve service with me.
So you see, there really are Christmas miracles and the most wonderful of all....the birth of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ....He put the Christ in Christmas and I pray we never forget that no matter how difficult things are in our lives. No matter how little money we have, we can always give the one gift that is worth more than anything in this world...LOVE.
Merry Christmas and God Bless you.....
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Most years, I am so giddy that my excitement can't be contained. This year, not so much. Prehaps it's the economy and the lack of being able to do things I want that is effecting me so much. That shouldn't be the case but, it is. I hope that I can change it.
Anyway, I want to wish all of you a very Merry and Blessed Christmas!
Friday, December 12, 2008
This week has been so very, very difficult! I can't ever remember working at a place so stressful and so difficult. I simply don't know if I am gonna make it or even how long I can hold on. I was told when I interviewed that the job qualifications were: Perfection, that you show up every single day, and you get along with others. I should have paid more attention to the "perfection" part, that and the low, low pay. I was so excited in this stressful time to finally have a job that I thought anything is better than nothing. Oh how wrong I was!! Don't get me wrong, I am thankful, very thankful for a job. It's just that I am human and thus, imperfect. Well, that is simply unexceptable! I am not joking, we are NOT allowed to make mistakes!! The world shudders and rocks when even the simplest of simple and easy correctible mistakes are made and the person that made the mistake is made to feel less than worthless! It is not a fun place to be! Still, I am hanging in there and praying for a better day.
Well, it's below 8 degrees outside so, I think I will settle in some blankets and do some reading.
Take care and God keep you!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
I know, crummy pictures but, I never claimed to be a photographer! One looking into the light and one looking into the woods. It is kinda cool how the snow flakes look reflected in the light/lens tho. We went up to the Marathon station and cars were all over the road, slipping and sliding! There is a LOT of ice under the 5-6 inches of fast falling snow. It shows no signs of letting up and I am thinking I am going to be missing Church in the morning. *sigh* I was really wanting to go to. I hate missing! lol
Anyway, I am off to play and create. Take care, stay warm and safe!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
There is one lady, she is very helpful, kind and sweet but, she doesn't really work with or near me so, kindness is far away.
Now, these are the ladies in the office that I am speaking of. The people in the production area that I worked in for background training, they are all so awesome!!! They are really great people! What a difference it is from the people in 'the back' to the 'ladies' and I use that term VERY loosely, out front. It's kinda sad really.
Oh well, all I can do is pray and do the very best job I can do. I was told NOT to make any mistakes....LMBO!! Since last time I looked I was not God, I think that might be a bit hard to do.
Till next time....
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Monday is December 1st and Christmas is fast approaching. It will be a bit of a sad Christmas this year with the money situation in fact, I am not sure how I am going to do Christmas at all but, I am going to give it my best shot. My beautiful Mer-Monster won't be with me but, I will have my son and Grandson and I am thankful for that. I am looking forward to it, don't get me wrong, I think it's just that I am still so sick and it kinda has me down.
My beautiful Angel Unaware Aubrey and her awesome other half brought me a wonderful blessing of boxes of food! Mr. Ginzer's class, Aubrey's other half, collected all the goodies and gave them out to those in need. What a special bunch of kids Mr. Ginzer's class is!! I am so touched and proud of them and so very, very thankful! What a blessing it has been!!
Well, my brain is stuffed and can't hold a coherent thought so, I am signing off for now and looking forward to less congested days! LOL
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
This gives you a menu for 5 days and all the ingredients it takes to cook the meals plus, the recipes! They are all very easy and really great tasting!
We were spending between 100.00$ - 140.00$ per week for a family of 4 that eats ALOT! We have since cut our grocery bill pretty much in half! Our highest weekly bill since utilizing this awesome sight has been 66.00$!! This is the total for ALL groceries purchased this week...including cat food, lunch meat, sodas and a very few extras. Don't get me wrong, we look for the most conservative staple that the recipe calls for and our 'extra' purchases are VERY few but, we have really started saving!
Another thing you can do to save some money is start a spending journal. This ones a bit tougher to keep up with and takes commitment, real dedication but, it does work! What you do is get a little note book you can keep in your purse and every single time you spend money on any item, you record it. Say you stop and get gas and a soda..you record it: 10.00$ (gas-Marathon) 1.49$ Mt. Dew. You RECORD EVERY SINGLE PURCHASE NO MATTER HOW SMALL! That is the key! Once you do it for 2 weeks to a month, you analyze it and you will be very surprised at how much money you spent for non-necessary items and how much you could have saved or put toward something else.
So, there are a coupla fairly easy ways you can save some money that you can 'see' immediatly. Let me know if you try one or both and how it works for you!
Monday, November 17, 2008
I met several people and they were very nice...aren't we all in the beginning? Oh that was a wicked thing to say! LOL Still, they were very nice! I really do look forward to this new beginning in this new position and look forward to the endless possibilities it brings. More than anything, I am thankful to my Lord and God for bringing this blessing to me!! Thru Him, all things are possible!
Take care...Mental Out
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Anyway, just thought I would update you all!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
I consider it not only a challenge but an opportunity and blessing. I can't wait to see if I get hired and what happens after that.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
'Back in the day', as people say, it was a bit of a taboo if you will, to have 'friends' online but, we have quickly moved past that. When you spend a good amount of time online, no matter what you do, blogging, playing games, chatting, whatever it is, you 'meet' people and form 'relationships'. These people fill places in your heart, you come to care about them, share their happy and sad moments, you may know all about their lives. You pray for them, you cry and laugh with them. The love and grief you may feel for them and with them is real.
Beautiful Brenda, Spirit Of The Dove, we love you and we miss you but we know that you are now in His hands, with our beloved Lord. May you look down on us and smile. God Bless you and keep you, friend.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Tho I differed from Obama on his abortion morals, in all sense of those, I just could not let those concerns sway my vote. No, I don't agree with his fetal care, or no care policies, no, I don't agree with any of the choices he has a record on in that regard. However, as an unemployed Mother, watching my family loose all it's hope and we sink in despair, I had to vote for change! We simply can not take any more OR, have any more taken from us!! I can pray that Obama changes his views on the right to life, abortion and all things in that area. I differ from most Christians in that I believe we have God given free will and the right to choice is granted there in. Personally, at this stage in my life, I am pro-life BUT only after given a choice! What I am saying is, it is an extremely personal issue and I believe that every woman should be given a choice! As a Christian, I would pray for her and pray she is given all information and support that she needs to make the correct decision but, I would not take that choice from her.
As we watch the next couple of months, and the next year, or two, I pray that our hope was placed in the right person and that we all begin to realize that it is not by OUR will that this country once again grows strong but, by God's will and His alone! God must be brought back to America. There is brokenness, heartache, degradation, loss, loneliness and hopelessness throughout homes and this country. As we fell away from God, in our homes, in our government, in our lives, despair and evil was made welcome. Crime rates soar, abuse, racism, murder, hate...the list goes on and on and we have watched it growing every day and we sit and wonder what on earth is going on? The answer is simple and right there, it has been all the time. We fell away from the principals this country was founded on and before that, the principals that Jesus came and gave to us. We fell away from God. When there is no light, there can only be darkness.
I pray that God will once more grant us mercy and shine His light and love on us. I pray that the hope we feel again, will remain and grow flowing all over our Nation and our lives. I pray that all those that are lost, will be found. I pray that in despair and darkness, we will find hope and light once more.
By God's grace...By God's will...Amen.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Don't people read their comments? Don't they care about their readers?
I am begining to wonder and that makes me sad!
Monday, October 27, 2008
My snuggy cords are now in the rag pile and another Monday goes down in Mental history for another blonde moment!
Mental out....LMBO...for REAL!
Sunday, October 26, 2008
1.How long have you been using PSP, PS? PSP? I have been using PSP for about 8 yrs now. I have dabbled in PS and look forward to learning and using it more! I would be lost without my PSP tho! I LOVE it!
2. How did you get into making tags, scrapkits? I got an enail years ago that had a sig tag in it! I fell in love and wanted to learn how to do that! I joined HGH aka Heather's Graphix Haven (closed) and began to learn. I formed my own PSP list with some friends, then, opened my own list and invited Jacq to co-own when I met her...Whimz & Wishez. The rest is history!
3. Who`s your fave artist? OMGshhh, I literally have TONS and TONS of favs! Jody Bergsma, Susan Comish, Jonathon Bowser, Alan Ayers, Jim Warren, Bergkvist..TONS! So many I forget them all!
4.Who`s your favorite Scrap Designer? Like above, I really do have tons of favs! You should see all the sites I have bookmarked! I really love Melissa from Sentimental Style, Sunf from UrbanFairyTales, Seaschell, Alexa, Shawna from Scrap Stuff with PSP, and sooo many more! There are some really awesomely talented people creating!
5. Which three blogs do you visit everyday? I Love blogs and Jaqc's always has wonderful stuff on it! I try to get there atleast once a day and hit the others that I have bookmarked as often as I can! I visit all the ABCD blogs of course, and my own. LOL
Now, I am supposed to send this to 3 others...well, seems most all are hit that I visit so, am breaking the chain here! Sorry Jacq! LOL Thank you tho!! I loved being 'interviewed'! :O)~
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Nothing fancy...but, it's from the heart! The preview is kinda funky here but, I guess you get the idea. Thank you, Denise!! You are so AWESOME!!
I am choosing not to stress over money worries today! Now, that may be easier said than done but, I am going to work on it.
I joined a new Yahoo group about a week ago, it's called Freecycle.com and it is awesome! You sign up for your area and then people post with free stuff they want to offer or things they are looking for. It's like having a yard sale every day! It's well worth finding one in your location! When I know the exact name for it, I will post it for you.
I am off to work on WW now, get some stuff done for the list and see where the day leads.
Till next time....
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
My friend is in a really bad relationship, the kind you wouldn't wish on your worst enemy. She is 'stuck' in that relationship due to financial reasons and I honestly believe that right now, there is no way out for her. She is doing everything possible to get out of it however. This last year has been a very turbulent and painful year for her. She met this person, a person that she absolutely fell head over heels for but, didn't see a way to have a relationship with this man because of the state of her own situation plus, she wasn't sure if this man felt the same way she did. Anyway, she ended up moving away from this man, and then finding out that he felt the same, or he indicated that he did. So, here she was, miles from this man, feeling as if he was her knight in shining armor and not knowing how in the world to get back to him. He as all she thought about. He was everything she dreamed of. So, she put a plan in motion, get a job, save some money and get out of the current relationship, move back to the area she had left and start a 'real' relationship with this man. She believed that he felt the same and was going to wait for her, meantime, they would have an 'email' relationship. Apparently, he didn't feel the same. She told me that he told her never to write him again, that the "rollercoaster world" she lived in was too painful to him and he needed something 'real'. My friends' whole world came crashing down, again, in 2 lines of an email.
The thing is, she told me that he was right, that her life was a rollercoaster! She has been recently diagnosed with 2 magor illnesses and has been fighting those, she lost her job, and is in this awful relationship that she is desperatly fighting to get out of. This other man was her lifeline I think, her hope for a better future and her last final belief in love, that love really does exist. She has now lost that last bit of hope she was clinging to and her self esteem, gone, totally and unquestionably gone. She told me that she understood that this other man could not possibly love someone like her, she had too much baggage, was too fat, too old and too sick. How could she ever have believed that he would wait for her? She said that she had put unrealistic expectations on their relationship, that she had not meant to but, that she had. She believed that the only way to keep their relationship alive and well was to communicate thru email since that was all she had. She had told him her thoughts. She emailed him but, he never really had the time to email her back and she constantly told me that he was just too busy with drama in his own life. I told her that should have been a clue. She agreed. I told her that life IS a rollercoaster! Some days are up and some are not! Sometimes we all expect too much. Sometimes we all say things we don't really mean in the heat of the moment or even do things we wished we never did but, that is how human beings are! I told her that if it had really been love, he would have 'talked' to her and not simply emailed her a 'Dear Jane' email. That, of course, is the easy way out. I told her that I believe that he did not have the love level she did nor the committment level that she did and yes, she did put too many expectations on him. She thought he was the most awesome man she had ever met, that he was funny, intelligent and gorgeous! I told her well, then he sounds too good to be true. Then she said, yeah, I guess he was. I built him up and there was no where for him to go but down. She said she just regrets that he didn't care enough to talk to her about his concerns or anything else. I agreed, that was sad and perhaps, he gave up just too easily on something really special.
Ah well, I believe that my friend will heal in time. I don't believe however that she will trust again and maybe, just maybe, she will never let her heart get away from her again but, she will live. After all, a broken heart may hurt worse than the physical abuse she lives with but, it won't kill her......
Friday, October 3, 2008
The last 2 weeks or so have been...gosh, it's hard to find the words. I guess I will start at the beginning...
I got a call from the Mer Monster, for those of you that don't know, Mer is my 14 year old daughter. She is..stubborn, intelligent, talented, beautiful and a pain in my rear end! LOL She is my baby girl, what can I say. Mer called me and she told me that she needed to talk to me, that she had 'done something'. Let me tell you, I have heard these words before but, there was something in her tone of voice that cause a HUGE pit to form in my stomach! I was silent. She told me that she and a group of her friends had been 'playing this game', that she had 'hurt herself'. Even tho it registered somewhere in my brain what she was telling me, it didn't register in some ways. I know that's hard to explain, and understand. She continued and told me that she wasn't hurt that badly and that she had 'snapped' before she had done too much damage. Ok, I was freaking and trying really hard to keep it together all at the same time while listening and picturing this beautiful little girl 'hurting' herself. By 'hurting' I mean stabbing and cutting. These kids who love each other, were doing this to themselves AND each other. Why? Because they hurt so much 'inside' that the pain to the exterior makes them feel better!! Yes, we have all heard of this and these 'cutters' but, WE NEVER THINK OUR KIDS ARE THOSE KIDS! I am here to tell you that THOSE kids are OUR kids! Yours, mine and ours! It doesn't matter if you are black, white, pink or purple; rich, poor or inbetween; it doesn't matter what school they go to, who they hang out with, what clubs they are in or who their Mommy and Daddy's are! They are ALL kids and they are OUR kids! Get a clue people! Our kids are crying out for help! Depression is a HUGE problem with our children!! YOU need to know what your child is doing, saying and what their friends are doing and saying! You need to wake up and pay attention! I was so lucky that my daughter snapped and called me for help! Every day, other parents are not so lucky and they are getting a call from someone else, someone telling them that their child killed themself! Please take some time to research teen depression and the EMO culture that is alive and well....for lack of better words, in our kids lives today! Before it's too late for your child, you and your family. If you have time to read these words, you have time to read about teen depression!
Ok, sorry for yelling but, sometimes ya gotta wake some folks up.
Now, some good did happen during these painful two weeks as well. Last week, I was walking into Church, Granger Community Church which is now our full flegded home church, and as I was sitting down, I heard a rather loud determined voice say, "So, I am worth less than your dirty clothes." Now, I looked around, kinda startled, and embarrassed at the same time. See, I had been thinking that I had some money in my purse...2 piles actually. One pile was a 5 dollar bill with 3 ones, and the other was a 20 dollar bill I was saving for laundry. I wanted to know who heard this voice and how did the voice know I was going to save the 20 for laundry and only give the 8 dollars to the church plate. As I looked and noticed that nobody else heard the voice, I began to realize with my head what my heart knew the instant I heard that voice. I KNEW exactly who said those words...God. I KNEW it. Plain and simple and let me tell you, it was like when you were a child and being scolded by your parent!! I was embarrassed and ashamed, right to the core! I felt soooooooo bad that I can't tell you! And let me tell you that when the church plate came 'round, I couldn't get that 20 bucks in there quick enough! Phewww! It was a relief too!
After I put the money in the collection plate, I turned to my husband to explain why I had given our laundry money. I told him I would explain it better in the car...I didn't want anyone to hear me and think me totally insane, but, that I just had to. He simply smiled and said, "I was thinking that we should give that 20 anyway." I told him later on, about God speaking to me and he didn't even think me crazy a bit. He said he didn't hear God but, he knew God wanted us to give that money.
Just a few days later....worrying about how we were going to pay for repairs to our car and get some food and pay some bills...we got a phone call telling us to come trade in our broken car for a new one...no money down, we got a check in the mail from my blogging for 120.00$ and my hubby got a brand new XBox to replace his that had failed. Now, you tell me that obeying God doesn't pay!! J has been testifying like a mad man all week to the guys at work and anyone that he can get to stop for a second and listen! It's crazy! lol He said tonight...God said follow me and I am saying follow me to God! Let me tell you folks, when God speaks to you, YOU KNOW it! You might ignore it and try to rationalize it away but, YOU KNOW IT! My daughter asks me how do you know when God talks to you? I answer her this way...you know that little voice in your head that says, you know you shouldn't have done that?...well, that's God. I know that isn't really explaining it right or correctly maybe but, it's simple and honest. We know when we do right and wrong, plain and simple. God isn't this huge mysterious creature somewhere, He's plain and simple...He's God. You know Him and you feel Him. He is alive and He is in your life. You may not know it, you may not like it but, it is. When I explain to her the way I do, she gets this look in her eyes like a light bulb went off and usually says oh yeah! She knows, just like you and I know and, just like God knows! So, from a simple and plain woman like me to you...check God out, you really won't be sorry!
Before my hubby was saved, he used to ask me things like "how do you know there's a God" "how do you know God talks to you" "how can you be so sure?!?!" I couldn't explain it well, I don't have the words. I would simply tell him how I found God, my experience and how I felt and feel. I told him, I don't have the words to tell you but, I simply know. I mean look at it this way, if I am wrong, what have I lost? But, if you are wrong...what have you lost? I would rather believe and be wrong than not believe and be wrong!! If I believe and I do, I get to spend enternity in heaven. If I am wrong, and I am not, then, what, I go to sleep forever and ever. If you are right, you get to sleep too but, if you are wrong.....well, we know where you get to spend eternity! So, what side would you rather be on? Me, I am betting on the Big Guy! lol Besides, once you know how awesome God is, you can't go back! God kicks butt! The feeling that God gives is a million times better than anything you have ever tried! I call it the God High! It's amazing! It makes you all silly and giggly and hungry. No, it's not weed, it's the God High! You get silly with joy, giggly with knowing you are saved and hungry for more of God! Hubby and I are 'baby Christians', we are still learning about God and wow, we are hungry to know more! Every single Sunday after the church service is ending we are already looking forward to next Sunday and wishing it was here already! We hunger for knowledge of God! We thirst for Him and want to learn everything we can! It's overwhelming how much we want God in our lives! We can't get our fill of God! LOL
Anway, I invite you, if you live anywhere around Mishawaka, Indiana, to check out Granger Community Church and to check out God, you won't be sorry...and hey, tell Him that the dirty laundry lady sent you, He'll know who you mean. *smiles*
Till next time....
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Speaking of Church, we attended the Granger Community Church for the first time this morning, on our search for a 'home' church. At first we were a bit unsure due to it being a VERY large church but, we were very pleasantly surprised. Not only was the worship music to our tastes but, the teaching was very currently applied biblical teaching AND there was some wonderful humor throughout the ceremony! It really was a great experience! Even Tybo enjoyed it! We will definetly being going again next Sunday and are looking forward to it alreay!
On another note, I wanted to tell you about this Mr. Clean freebie spongy thingy I got and tried. WOW! It is amazing! It's called the Magic Eraser, something close to that anyway. It cleans soooo awesomely AND effortlessly! For someone with arthritis and Fibromyalgia, it is a must have! I will see if I can find the freebie link but, I only remember that I got it off of Summergal's blog! Her link is here...tell me more, tell me more...I believe is her title. I should know! LOL Because she is one of my bestest friends AND her blog has the most awesome freebies!!
Still another note, I finished another scrap kit today! It is my favorite now! lol I entitled it: Sugar Cookies and it is a Christmas kit. I had a thought of something I wanted to make one night, a sugar cookie and that thought inspired the whole kit! I hope you will check it out! Here is a little quick tag I made to show you the new kit.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
On the way home from work today, I got off early due to lack of work, I was listening to my local Christian station that I love, WFRN, and I heard a song... a song that simply made me cry from the bottom of my heart. It was a speaking voice, set to the music of Silent Night and based on a poem called, "Meet Me In The Stairwell". The voice in the song was God's voice, well, you know what I mean...and wow!! It is a heart and gut wrenching thing to listen to! Here is a link to this song: http://www.visionradioproductions.com/node/577 Please take a moment to listen to it. Be sure to have plenty of tissue ready!! Here is the YouTube link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gzg1qL6b4uk
And, in rememberance of 9/11/01 Here is the poem by Stacey Randall: "Meet Me In The Stairwell"
By Stacey Randall
You say you will never forget where you were when
you heard the news On September 11, 2001.
Neither will I.
with a man who called his wife to say 'Good-Bye.' I
held his fingers steady as he dialed. I gave him the
peace to say, 'Honey, I am not going to make it, but it
is OK...I am ready to go.'
I was with his wife when he called as she fed
breakfast to their children. I held her up as she
tried to understand his words and as she realized
he wasn't coming home that night.
I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor when a
woman cried out to Me for help. 'I have been
knocking on the door of your heart for 50 years!' I said.
'Of course I will show you the way home - only
believe in Me now.'
I was at the base of the building with the Priest
ministering to the injured and devastated souls.
I took him home to tend to his Flock in Heaven. He
heard my voice and answered.
I was on all four of those planes, in every seat,
with every prayer. I was with the crew as they
were overtaken. I was in the very hearts of the
believers there, comforting and assuring them that their
faith has saved them.
I was in Texas , Virginia , California , Michigan , Afghanistan .
I was standing next to you when you heard the terrible news.
Did you sense Me?
I want you to know that I saw every face. I knew
every name - though not all know Me. Some met Me
for the first time on the 86th floor.
Some sought Me with their last breath.
Some couldn't hear Me calling to them through the
smoke and flames; 'Come to Me... this way... take
my hand.' Some chose, for the final time, to ignore Me.
But, I was there.
I did not place you in the Tower that day. You
may not know why, but I do. However, if you were
there in that explosive moment in time, would you have
reached for Me?
Sept. 11, 2001, was not the end of the journey
for you. But someday your journey will end. And I
will be there for you as well. Seek Me now while I may
be found. Then, at any moment, you know you are
'ready to go.'
I will be in the stairwell of your final moments.
Monday, September 1, 2008
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Due to lack of medical insurance, I am unable to get to a doctor. I 'make to much' to receive any kind of aid, and I am simply one of those people left out. If things keep going like this, I am going to head to the ER as I am getting scared of what's going on with me.
The emotional pain is much harder to deal with and explain. I am simply lost. I feel as if I am in this giant, dark pit and though I know there is a way out, I can't find it. I don't know which way to turn, which way to move, so, I stand still, in the darkness. I have come to a point that all I can think to do is to pray. I don't even know what to pray for really though. I am simply going to pray and ask God to help me out of this place I am in. That is all I can do.
I am worried about some friends...Denise, whom I love dearly, who seems so down and blue...I wish you didn't feel that way, I understand, and I would take it from you if I could! Sandra, in the path of Gustav, I fear for you and pray for you. For Jan, also in Gustav's path...May God keep you both safe from harm!
I guess that's about it for now. Not very exciting or inspiring.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
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Saturday, August 16, 2008
The kittens all found homes today as well. It was the first day for the Ad in the newspaper and they are gone. Mother in law ended up keeping the runt, tiger, a small orange tabby and the Mommy of them all, went to a wonderful family living on an 18 acre farm. She needed to be outside. The land is fenced in and she will have 2 other kitty friends there as well. When the lady came to get her, she stuck her paw out and touched the ladies arm, looking longingly at her and I knew she had found a home and heart to care for her! We just couldn't keep her couped up in this small apartment, it wasn't fair.
A single couple, the man in the military and the wife, a stay at home, work part time wife, came for the brindled babies. At first, they only took one, but, the man really wanted them both. The wife said no to him. They drove away and 15 mins later, he was back knocking at the door for the other one. It was too funny!
The other orange tabby went to a friend of ours. We will be able to see her any time.
So, I guess it was a really good day and all the babies got great homes!
I start work this Wednesday, a new temp assignment. I have to be positive about it and pray that things will work out. I am getting tired of being down so, time to hit the praying really hard! I don't want to be sad any more! Life's too dang short!
Guess that's it for now, I'm tired and going to read. Take care and see ya next time...
Thursday, August 7, 2008
I sigh a heavy sigh, the good times, they never seem to last.
A ghost of a smile plays about my lips, a memory dances just
beyond my finger tips.
I reach out, longing to catch it, to bring it close again.
It flitters away. Alone again, alone since then.
Reaching for the phone, my hand wavers and falls,
longing to hear your voice, empty silence, no one calls.
So many words bottled up inside wanting to tumble
forth and all I can do is stumble, not knowing if you
want to hear them, nor knowing how to shape the emotion
into words that escape me.
How do I show you? How do I make you see?
These stupid words, they don't mean a thing,
not when my heart has forgotten how to sing.
How I long to see your face, to touch you, touching me.
So many miles my love has traveled,
ripping at my heart unraveled.
A tear slips and and falls,
I don't catch it.
Perhaps it's not the end, could it be the beginning
I don't have the strength to hold on, my soul screams
catch me, bring me to the safety of your love
and teach me words can be true.
I just want to sleep, simply to forget,
lost in yesterday, aching with regret.
Why didn't I tell you, say the words my heart
begged me to say?
I love you, I need you, I want you, it hurts, I
only wanted you to whisper, please don't go,
it's me, please stay.
Gazing out the window all I can do is cry.
I'm lost, beyond the hows and why,
all I ache for is the soothing comfort of your arms
holding me, showing me there's no more harm.
Help me. Save me. Teach me.
More than all, love me
with a love that I've dreamt of all my life,
never wanting more than just to share
Remind me how to again believe
for all I know is how love always leaves.
Let your heart with words speak to mine,
whisper it's me and you are mine.
Not for now, not for today, forever,
for all time.
Teach me how to hope, to trust, how to see,
say the words, come home, my love, come
home, it's me.
These last few weeks have gotten so hard. I realize that I am depressed, in a funk, feeling lost and can't seem to find my way out. There is a sadness, an emptiness in my life that I just can't seem to make go away. I would guess that 50% is from being 'sick' and 50% is stress but you would think that in knowing that, I could make it stop. I can't. I hate living like this. I hate remembering the way I used to be, the person I used to be and almost crying cause I miss her so much! I want to be that person again! I want to smile again, and mean it! I want to laugh again because there is something in my life to laugh about! I remember that people used to tell me all the time, "You are always smiling!" It's true, I was. Now all they say is, "Why do you look so sad? Why do you look so unhappy?" I can't explain, there are no words.
Along with all this there is an overwhelming sense of melancholy. There are people in my life that I love and are not in my life right now. I miss them! I miss them with all my heart! I want to share my life with them again and I want to share their life with them. But, I don't know how.
I feel so lost. So completely and utterly lost. I really hate it! Life was not meant to be lived like this and in truth, it is not living at all, it is merely existing among the living! Life was meant to be full, rich and happy...at least most of the time anyway. lol I know we all have our moments of sadness, of troubles, stresses and such but, geeeshhh...come on already.
So, what do I do? How do I change this cycle of unhappiness? How do I end this feeling of hopelessness and emptiness?
I don't know. I wish I did.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Recently my friend Beth, owner of Turning PoinT General Contracting, approached me about a business deal. I own Saving You The Green, a lawncare and landscape company. She wanted to incorporate or merge our businesses. After meeting with her and discussing all the details, we decided it would be good for all of us, all the way around. So, we started to get things moving. Since then, the lawyers, accountants and banks have been involved and like everything related to those types, we are bogged down in red tape. At this point, everything is on hold. That's a real bummer!
On the home front, I got a call from my sister saying that my Mom needed some help. She is in a nasty relationship and apparently, decided it was time for her to get out. My opinion is that she should never have gotten into the relationship with this jerk but, I am not one to speak about relationships by any stretch of the imagination!! So, I am dealing with that mess and it looks like I might be making a trip to New Mexico and South Carolina soon. I need to go pick up my Mom, from NM, and take her to my sister's home in SC. I am up for it, anything to get my Mom away from that...that....ewwww there are no words!! It won't be pretty and it won't be fun. It will be very expensive! I am so ready to go!!
The business is good, we have had several estimates lately and I am waiting to hear back on the last 2. Plus, we have an easy money job tonight and believe me, with me out of a 'real' job, any money coming in is a blessing!
Well, I am off to nap and hopefully this nasty cold will subside soon!! It is NOT fun!
Till next time...
The Cisco Learning Network. When I first opened their homepage, https://cisco.hosted.jivesoftware.com/index.jspa?ciscoHome=true, I noticed the difference right away. It was more of a blog layout. They offered snipets of information so that you could read a bit and decide if you wanted to learn more. The homepage is crammed full of information. They offer discussions you can read and visuals through video as well. As we all learn and soak up information in different ways, I thought this was a great way to present information to all.
As I read more, I saw that they offered 4 levels of education, an Entry level all the way to Specialist. You can pick the certificate that is right for you in their Network Certification Programs!
One program that I am very interested in finding more information on is the Cyber Security/Network Security programs. I believe that this is an up and coming field with a great many opportunities available now with more to come in the future. Cisco offers Network and Internetwork security programs. Within these, there are various levels of specialties for you to choose your focus from.
It was very appealing to me that Cisco also mentions a 'Green' IT. With the economy and global issues we all face, this was a plus for me! Cisco has a goal of reducing greenhouse gas emissions by 25% in the next 4 years. Definetly a factor in my research!
The Cisco site also offers a 'real people' aspect. You can utilize the 'Connections' tab to find out what kind of people are active in the Cisco Network Learning world. See what kind of professionals they are associated with and what their functions are.
They have an online learning center as well. Resources, documents, discussions and blogs, all the information you could want and use!
The Cisco Learning Network site is definetly full of information and well worth taking a look at if you are seeking to enhance or further your career in networking! Do yourself a favor and don't pass up the information and opportunities this site offers!
Friday, July 18, 2008
Sometimes, I simply don't know what to think or which way to turn! It's like being out of focus so you stand real still, afraid to move because you aren't real sure which direction is the right direction, the safe direction.
It's been a week since leaving my temporary job. I miss the security of that. I miss my friend Aubrey there even more. I get my last pay check from that position today and no more in sight. I am simply terrified! I pray that God will lead me to where I need to be and constantly remind myself that my life belongs to Him and that I have turned my life over to Him. So, when does the fear stop? I was taught that when you turn your life over to God, you are granted peace. I haven't gotten the peace part yet. The fear still rules my life. There are times when it is so bad, it physically manifests itself. I get headaches, stomach aches, snappy and unable to function. As a person with Social Anxiety Disorder, SAD, it sure doesn't help any to be unemployed!
I went and filed for unemployment on Monday. I didn't even get to talk to a live person so, I have no clue as to what will happen. We have become so dispersonal as a society. It's all about 'line em up, get em in and get em out' and forget that they are human beings! I left with even more questions than I had. Plus, there are so many more people out of work that assistance is backed up. It's a sad state of affairs for our country.
So, as I look for work, work on getting the business going, I debate what I am doing wrong and what I am going to do. I am still toying with the thought of going back to school. I am so leaning in that direction but again, the fear looms up and kicks me in the gut. I hate living in this constant state. I think that if by Tuesday I haven't heard anything on a job, I will call the ITT Tech councilor and see if I can set up an appointment with her to discuss options.
I guess that's about it for this rant.
Till next time...
Monday, July 14, 2008
As you know, my job finished on Friday. I got a gift card from the wonderful folks at Church Plumbing and Heating and a delicious cake! I was thinking of paying some bills with my card but instead I went a little crazy. I got 2 outfits, one for an interview, should I have one, and the other for relaxing in. I didn't have any jean shorts any more so now I do! Yay! I also got some T's for hubby to work in, new socks and just some fun stuff. I saved enough to get a hair cut too!
On Friday evening, I got a call from an elderly woman who needed an estimate on some yard work she needed done. Hubby and I went over there and met with Mrs. H and her lovely husband, Mr. H. They are 80 and 89, respectively. Mr. H is ill with pre-stage Alzheimers. He has the sweetest smile you would ever want to see and if I wasn't already hitched, I might have had to flirt with him a little. Oh he is a doll and such a gentle man. Well, while we were talking with Mrs. H about what she needed done, she just about broke down in tears. They are on a fixed income of course and no children or family to help them out. My husband who has a HUGE soft spot for the elderly was a gonner! He decided to do the work for the cost of the materials AND will be taking care of her lawn for the next month for free. He also gave her a VERY low cost estimate for a monthly contract for every month after that. When he finished the work the next day, she was so happy she couldn't hardly speak. He presented her with a pot of flowers and will be back to work for her at the end of the week. Meeting them was a blessing and so was the income for us.
With the little bit of money we made, we purchased advertising materials. Well, while I was on the website we use, www.Vistaprint.com I got 2 emails with 'freebies' offered from them. I was on a roll then...I shopped till I dropped for sure! We were able to get almost 200.00$ worth of materials for 33.50$ not including shipping! We got T-Shirts, a Cap, business cards, post cards, car door signs, sticky notes, thank you cards, and much more! Thank you Vistaprint! Another blessing in that savings and opportunity!
Then, as if that wasn't enough, while relaxing for the evening, the kids and Mother-In-Law gone, I realized that Biscuit, the cat we gave hubbies Mom, hadn't been seen for a few hours. So, we went looking for her. She didn't come when dinner was served and I knew that wasn't right. We finally found her, in the far, dark corner of our closet. Her and 5 newborn kittens!! We knew she was pregnant but, had no clue that she was so far along! She is very small and was not all that fat, or so we thought. We now have 2 black babies, 1 buff, and 2 orange and white furballs. One has a very large voice too! LOL All are doing fine as far as we know. We will check them more this evening after they have had time to adjust a bit.
I need to get to work now so, better finish this posting.
Till next time...
Friday, July 11, 2008
Life is changing once again. It seems my life is always in a state of constant flux and today is no different. I have never had a ‘normal’ stress-free time in my life. I have accepted, or at least am working on accepting, that. God created my life to be a roller coaster. I would normally say that this kind of wild, stress-filled life would be due to choices we have made for ourselves and our lives. I would also say that 75% of that holds true for me. As I grow as a Christian, I learn more and more and hopefully make better decisions based on that; I also see that the stress in my life remains a sure thing, a constant. That being the case, I tend to believe that this is the life I was meant to have. I won’t say I like it but, it is not my choice.
So, today I wrap up a job that I have had for 4 mos which most of you are thinking is not a very long time. You are right, it isn’t. However for a person with SAD, Social Anxiety Disorder, even an hour can be a VERY long time. I made relationships here and friends, again something that for a person with SAD can be very hard to do. So, it is a very stressful day, knowing I will be leaving the little bit of security I have built up here at this job. The worry of knowing that I will have to go interview and start another position again can be and is, overwhelming at times. It can literally make me sick.
I also had to finally get a ‘new’ car yesterday replacing the old beater I had. I knew it was coming but I was not looking forward to it. It is just another stress inducing thing for me. The beater was paid for. There were no surprises as I knew what it’s quirks were, I knew it was junk, and so, I was comfortable with it. Now, I have a payment and a car that I don’t know. I found myself constantly listening and ‘feeling’ this morning on the way to work, waiting for something to be wrong with the new car. I have to talk myself out of that worry and it is almost impossible for me.
When I say that turning things over to God is what I am going to do, it is really want I want to do, what I would love to do, what I am dying to do but, not what I am capable of doing. With the anxiety I deal with, it is my nature to worry. If I turned it over, what would that leave me? Good question for someone in my shoes, isn’t it.
So, I keep saying, I am turning this all over to God. I think if I say it enough, I will talk myself into it and it is a way of practicing doing that. When you practice, it teaches you how to make it a routine. I have to turn my life into a minute to minute practice session. It is the only way I can see how to deal with things rather that going to a doctor, for which I have no insurance, and taking drugs I can’t afford and don’t want. So, practice, I hope, will eventually make perfect.
As the day dwindles and the new road looms closer, I will continue to worry but, maybe not as much as I chant in my head, I am giving it to you God, you can have it all, I don’t want it. I figure He will get sick of hearing me, take control and I won’t have to worry about it all any more. And, isn’t that the intent anyway?
Till next time...
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
What I would like to do is, work part time, as I have been, or at least attend the college courses I wanted to while working on the new business and collect from a fund I have access to. That is a short time fund however and it will run out. It also won't bring in as much as my working would.
Did anything I said even make sense? This problem is really weighing down my mind and my thought process is boggled down with it. I can't seem to think of anything else nor are any solutions just jumping up and hitting me in the face.
I would love to know your thoughts on this! Would you take a chance, these days? Is it worth it? There are such opportunities for the new business AND with me getting my college degree in the area I want and have wanted to for so long now! I am not getting any younger mind you. I simply will not have the time to do the college thing if I am working full time. I know myself, I know my limitations. That is not an option for me.
There is still a full time income coming in to the house if I don't work. It is not the amount of my income but, it is an income.
Did I say how much I am longing to work part time or, not at all and going back to college? I so am! More than my words can express. I really want to invest my time and energies in the college and the business! Maybe the business even more so! That is hard for me to admit too! As I write and re-read, I realize just how much I want this new business to succeed and the college courses were a back up to that plan for the future.
So, what would you do?
I will give it over to prayer and to God but, sometimes, I just need a little discussion with friends, or strangers, on things.
Till next time, may God bless and keep you!
Monday, July 7, 2008
Today begins my last week at my present job. To be honest, in most ways, I am not sorry to go but, with the economy the way it is, I am terrified in most other ways. I will leave it in God's hands.
This Holiday weekend was pretty simple in the Mental house. We went to a cookout on the 4th and did fireworks like most other folks. Nothing memorable and I guess, that is a good thing. For the rest of the weekend, it seemed that no one wanted to do a thing at all. They were vegetables and no amount of proding from me worked on them at all. I felt so good and full of energy on Saturday, I tried and tried to get them up and out, all to no avail. By Sunday, I gave in and turned into a turnip with them. We watched all of the Harry Potter movies, for about the millionth time and enjoyed them all over again. We are HUGE Harry Potter fans. We had a nice dinner Sunday night and simply laid back, eatting, watching movies and doing nothing. It was really nice.
And now it's Monday, back to the grind. My plan for this week is to get more fliers and business cards out for my new business, my Lawn Care and Landscaping business.
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We haven't been pusing it and now it's time to step it up into high gear! The kids get paid to pass out fliers and get a commission if their fliers generate business so, they are wanting to get out there. Well, at least the Mer Monster is. Ty-bo could care less. He has no mind set about anything but cartoons and play station. Geeshhh!
Anyway, I best get back to it.
Till next time....
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
This Wednesday is even better. It's on a short week, a Holiday week. So, I would normally be winding down today and looking forward to a relaxing weekend. I am looking forward to the weekend but, it's going to be a very busy one. I am going to a get-to-gether on Friday, the 4th of July, a cookout, and watching over the boys, kids and all others as they shoot off TONS of fireworks. Saturday will be doing some work on the new business, doing work on my blogs and working on designs and tutorials for the scrapping sites. Sunday, more work, laundry at the laundromat and more work on the computer.
As I look at what I just typed, I realize it's just another weekend! LOL Always cram packed full and never enough time to get anything accomplished! We make plans, good ones too, and they never, ever work out that way.
I love my life, I thank God for it....I just know that all this drama and hulabalu will count for something in the after life! I just know it!
I have to go look up some concert dates, times and places now. My Mer Monster is dying and I mean D-Y-Y-Y-ing to go see the Jonas Brothers in concert! It's more like Mom is dying with all the pestering and tears!! God give me patience, please oh please!! It is so expensive! I hate the thought that we will probably not be able to go but, I am pretty sure it will work out that way. Gas is too high, the cost of tickets too high...isn't it a shame that our kids miss out on memories these days due to money problems and the cost of everything?! It's sad.
Till next time...
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
I fought the valiant fight, keeping up with two kids and my hubby who is the biggest kid of all! Running here, there, everywhere, wiping the pouring sweat from my brow as I screamed internally in pure exhaustion.
Now, it was time to go home, looking forward to a restful bus ride where I did not have to move, drive, think or otherwise function, I sat down and my head just about exploded! I thought, I must just be more tired than I thought. By the time we reached our destination, and our own car to drive another 30 minutes to our home, my thoughts were blurry and the explosion in my head was 100 times worse. I almost could not complete the drive home, passing out on a curve isn't the thing to do, let me tell you!
Finally reaching home, silence ensued and we all hit our beds. Waking sometime early the next day to a still screaming head and a body that would not cool down, I knew wasn't going to make for a good weekend. I was suffering and suffering big time! All our weekend plans went out the window as Mom was down for the count!
This is the 4th day from that fated Friday and I still feel like crud! Anyone have any home remedies for an old lady who had too much heat, kids and 'fun'? I am in misery here! LOL
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Ohhh!! My heart leaps to my throat and it is so hard to swallow! Then, WHAM! My heart stops!!
Somebody call 911 cause I am dying here!!
At night I pray, "Dear God, Can I PLEASE, PLEASE Pretty-please with pink sugar on top, have him!!??" So far, I haven't gotten a response.
Anyone got a napkin? I have a little drool on my chin...
So, far, it seems that it was all talk and no walk. I am hanging in there though and I will keep you updated. If I need to eat my words at a later date, I certainly will do so.
Come on PayPerPost, show me I am wrong here! Give us opportunities!!
A very discouraged blogger....
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Anyway, here goes:
I was tagged by: http://moonlightscraps.blogspot.com/
When you've been tagged:
These are the rules:1. Link your tagger and list these rules on your blog.2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.4. Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
Ok... 7 facts about myself:
1. Bagpipe music almost always makes me cry!
2. I am the biggest whimp in the world and hate confrontation...but, will kill for loved ones!
3. I was a police officer.
4. There are many people I miss that will always hold a special place in my heart.
5. I am a geek-wanna-be!
6. I am overly sensitive.
7. I LOVE to create things!
People I am tagging:
I choose these people as I visit there sites often, learn from them by seeing what they are doing and because I love their work!
To top that off, I got a phone call where 2 of the owners were yelling at me about a file and I had no clue what they were talking about! I finally got them to calm down and tell me what in the world they were talking about only to realize, their son, the other owner, had not done what he should have done for me to do my part. I didn't say that but, kindly told them that I had no information on this file. Promptly they called their son and to my astonishment, he tells them that first: he has forgotten to do what he needed to do, then quickly realizes what he's said and amends it with: "I gave it to her 2 months ago, she lost it", which is an out and out lie! Of course, they believe him but, I have the whole team in my department on my side as they all know that was a lie, for various reasons.
So, here I am with this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach and heart, not wanting to be here and having to. What do I do? What is the right thing to do? Suck it up and do what I am supposed to no matter what? I guess so but, I really don't want to. Geeshhh...I need more than a deep breath on this one.
I just want a job where I can do a good job, serve a purpose, add to the team a little, use what brain I have and get a little creative! Ok, I would LOVE to get a lot creative but, people don't want to give an old lady with no formal degree, a chance. It's a darn shame cause they don't know what they are missing!! I have tons of ideas, thoughts and abilities! Did you forget that wisdom comes with age, people? Well, at least for some it does. *thinking of my current situation*
For others, not so much.
I wonder if anyone reading this would like an old.... no, well-seasoned, still trainable and more willing to be trained, voluptuous..I throw that in cause we all know that people DO judge by size and looks whether we all want to admit it or not, young at heart lady to work as part of their team....?
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Friday, June 20, 2008
I am doing my best to put it in God's hands. That is just so hard to do!
By God's Grace....
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
I am honored to have been asked to review this wonderful scrap kit by Loyal! It is called Fantasy Air and I used the tagger sized version for review.
First and foremost, I LOVE the colors in this set! Very soft and yet...strong, if that makes sense? They didn't wash out when you combined them with the elements. Therefore, you didn't loose your background papers and I love that!
The elements were frames and bows. I rarely use frames but, I found that these frames worked very well with the creation process making it easy and quick to create a tag. Very useful for quick tags like you use when welcoming a new member.
I also checked any resizing issues and found none! That is an A++ in my book! Too often when you have to resize to make tags, they come out jaggedy and unclear. Not so in this case!
I found this kit to be lovely and wonderful for quick tag making! Thank you, Loyal, for another wonderful kit!
Please visit Loyal's site for more great scrapping kits! http://www.adashofwhimsicalcreations.blogspot.com/
Monday, June 16, 2008
I need some peace, sanity and structure and all that is out the window for sure! Did I make life this way? Or, did someone who really had it out for me, do this to me? *wiggles eyebrows in a investigative, peering fashion* LOL
I want to create! My family won't give me time to just sit down, uninterrupted and let me be! I promised myself that this last weekend I would do my creating and that was that! Did I get it done? Heck no! I was off running and running, paying this bill and that, going here and there, errands for everyone and when at home, doing everything for everyone! If I only had the night time, when everyone was asleep, I know I would get masterpieces started AND finished! Ah well. Such is life right now. I barely have time to keep up here!
Well, I finished my part of our Collaborative kit at ABCDesignz and although it wasn't as I envisioned when I started out, I got something done. Be sure to check it out at our scrapsite. You can find the link in the Check These Out section of my blog here. I am starting another one as well but, this will be slower. I am wanting to do some really new and different stuff. I was playing a bit the other day before I got interrupted. It's going to be a kind of 'wintery' colored kit with blues and silver so, we will see what happens. I can't wait to see where this new vision for the kit takes me! *smiles*
If only I could get paid for real, for being online and creating!! Oh, I would be in heaven!! I just have to learn more, practice more, read more, visit more tuts and sites, work more in psp and other programs I don't have yet... I NEED more time! LOL
Till we meet again...
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Not only are things wild at work but, at home as well. We are having some issues with Ty...he just doesn't use his head, at all, and therefore making some really stupid and dangerous mistakes! He is not really committing the mistakes himself, only some of them, but, he is hanging out with a friend who is doing some stuff. Now, before you leap on this, Ty only has this one friend and they are pretty closely supervised 99% of the time. Still, boys being boys, they tend to fall below the radar every now and then. It's those times that the problems are occuring. Last night I told Ty that he could not play with this friend any more. Still, I feel bad as he literally was Ty's only friend.
Plus, Mer monster will be coming for the summer this weekend and we have been making arrangements to get her here, dealing with her latest dramas and shopping for end of the year 'must have' items. She is like a whirlwind! She takes your breath away!
And, on top of that, my other half is very, very ill with oral issues! He is in desperate need of surgery with tons of infections and dangerous levels entering his blood system. Not good at all! Since he has no insurance, we can't get this taken care of and I will talk more about that later. I am really upset with this and all he has had to go through while fighting massive pain and infection!
So, busy, busy here and just dropped by to catch up a little. Will be back soon!
Monday, June 2, 2008
I wanted to have something really cool to blog about today but lately my creative juices have not been flowing. It's ok, it happens. I will get in the groove again soon. If you would like, check out some other sites I work on: http://www.mentalnotez.blogspot.com/ and http://www.abcdesignz.blogspot.com/ or my homepage: http://www.mentalnotez.com/ Please bare in mind that I am only a geek-wanna-be and not a full grown geek yet. Somedays I wonder if I will ever grow up and then other days, I don't want to grow up! Ahhhh will I ever learn. LOL
Today Ty gets to stay home on his own, for the first time. Big J is more than a little nervous about this. Let me back up a bit...Ty is my husband and I's youngest of 3. Ty is 11 but, he is a little bit behind mentally than he should be. He can't help it, he's had some issues. Ty is my step-son actually and without going into a lot ot details, he came to live with us about 5 months ago now. Where he lived before....we will just say it was certainly NOT the best environment for a child. It's sad and tragic but, happy days are here for Ty now. (Names have been changed to protect the innocent!) ((I always wanted to say that! LOL))So, Ty is a bit slower than the other 2 creatures we have but, he will be fine. Big J, my hubby, is pretty worried but, he is giving this whole independance thing a shot, starting with today. I am crossing my fingers for him. In 2 weeks, his older terror of a sister will be here with him. I am not too sure that it will be any better for him when she is here. Merkle is 13 and wayyyyy ahead of her years. She lets Ty and everyone else know it as well. I have to give her credit though. she is gooooood sometimes in her....ah...adventures. When she was here for Christmas break, she and her friend snuck into Ty's room during the night. (He sleeps like the dead!) They proceeded to give him a make over, included was the ever popular hair conditioner called 'shaving creme' , hot pink lipstick, lavishly applied to lips AND cheeks, sparkling pink eye shadow and more! Then, the took pictures and posted it for the world to see...Ty in all his glory...on Myspace. I soooo had to restrain myself from just busting a gut laughing when it was time to 'punish' Merkle!
Anyway, I am sure Ty will be fine. It will be a learning and growing experience for him. And, he has all the emergency numbers and good neighbors to call on should something occur. The real threat is when Big J comes home and sees that Ty didn't listen to a word about what chores were to be done. No crossing my fingers on that one...Ty is a goner!
Till next time... God bless and keep you!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
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Have a Blessed Bloggin Day!
I live in a first floor apartment. There are about 6 buildings in the complex and my building is the back building, my apartment on the corner. Think of a square, I would be located in the left hand, front corner. More of a rectangle actually but, that's neither here nor there.
3 times now, I have been woken up but a loudish knocking on my bedroom window only to find nothing and no one there. I am not dreaming. Let me qualify that, I was dreaming twice when this occured however it brought me out of my dream and the dreams had nothing to do with my window or my bedroom! It is a very clear, very distinct knock and it is clearly a knocking on the window. Think about it, you know the difference between a knock on wood and a knock on glass right? Yes, you do.
Last night, it happened for the third time. Not only did it happen again but, it was louder and more persistant, if you will. I was dreaming, I was not dreaming a particularly good dream but, it didn't have anything to do with my window, a window, a bedroom or a room for that matter. The knocking always occurs between 3 and 4am. Every time this happens, I wake from a very sound sleep and never see anyone there.
Just so you don't think I am totally 'Mental'..lol My husband was awakened on one occasion as well. He heard the knocking as I did, got up, and checked inside and outside only to find nothing. We both wake/woke immediatly and the window is a large, wide, window so, it would be a bit hard to knock and run without being seen.
Last nights event, being more persistent and seemingly louder, scared the ba-jeebies outta me and I am not ashamed to admit it! I woke instantly, I froze, watching for something, someone, anything to explain what was going on. Nothing. Not a hint of a shadow or movement. I am not sure how long I lay there watching, listening, afraid to move or even breath. Finaly, I told myself that I had to get back to sleep and I began to drift off again, opening my eyes for a few last looks and fell back asleep.
Remembering clearly the events upon the alarm going off, I began to question my sanity. I am watching too much Ghost Hunters? I LOVE that show. Have I opened a door that I shouldn't have and inadvertantly? Is my apartment haunted? Is someone, something, trying to get my attention, to tell me something? Am I hearing things? What is going on? I even went as far as calling the complex manager and asking her if there had been any other reports of this strange knocking and told her what had been happening. She is a 'believer' in the paranormal so, she did not think ok, heres a crazy woman. She was very kind, concerned and understanding.
So, where does this leave me? Sleepless in Indiana? I am not sure at this point. Any thoughts anyone?
Till next time....I'll be watching Ghost Hunters and sleeping as I can. Take care friends and don't let the bed bugs bite!