It never fails to hit me square in the face, just how much I don't know! At 18, I was sure by 45, I would know everything there is to know! There wasn't that much left to learn after all, or so I thought.
Now as I sit here, typing, my mind racing over the day, the past few days and thinking about the days to come, I realize just how much I have yet to learn and how much I want to learn! I have taken on so many new endeavors just by leaping right in and not thinking. Normally, I don't think I am the type of person to do that. Maybe I am wrong in that thinking OR, perhaps it's just that these things happen to be things that I love doing. Or think I would anyway...lol And, now that I have a chance to actually do them, I am running and jumping at full speed ahead and damn the consequences!
I have taken on Blogging for Money, Scrap Set Designing/Selling, Creating a Website, a Personal Blog, and new list on AOL, and opening an online T-Shirt Design shop. Those are in addition to my already overloaded schedule of home, work and online duties.
Do I regret it? Not for a minute! The only thing that bothers me about it is that I don't know all I want to know about all of it! I want to know it all and I want to know it right now! I simply have no patience. For myself or others, much to my regret.
So, the bottom line is, I will blunder through it all, learn as I make mistakes and rely on my friends to help me out. Works for me!
Why is it that as our lives move into the middle years and edge into the end years, we discover just how much life and the world have to offer? When we want to know, learn and grow, our bodies are just starting to rebel and wanting to slow down. Our minds start to say, "Hey, I want to take a nap now!" but, our drive and lust for life just starts kicking into high gear! Seems hardly fair at all. I believe the only saving grace in that is when we get to Heaven, we won't have the restricts of a worn body or mind, we will finally get to live the life we want, in our own rights and according to each his/her own. As for me, I plan to have plenty of chats with God about his/her sense of humor and a few other sore spots and then, leave me to my country cottage while I create, read, love, laugh and live!