Wednesday, July 9, 2008

What to do?

As Friday looms nearer, the last day for this job contract, I am faced with a HUGE dilema. The temp service I work for is wanting to send me out to interview for a job, a job that would start pretty much right away, with the same pay I have now, and at full time hours. Sounds great, right? Well, it is a job that I really don't want. I tried it before for 4 months and did NOT like it at all! Not the same company but, the same position basically. Also, as I start up the new business, the lawn care one, I need to be able to dedicate some time to it as well. The thing is, with the economy the way it is, I am terrified that if I don't take this new position, and the business doesn't take off a bit, I won't get anything else and it will be a devestating blow to the family!
What I would like to do is, work part time, as I have been, or at least attend the college courses I wanted to while working on the new business and collect from a fund I have access to. That is a short time fund however and it will run out. It also won't bring in as much as my working would.
Did anything I said even make sense? This problem is really weighing down my mind and my thought process is boggled down with it. I can't seem to think of anything else nor are any solutions just jumping up and hitting me in the face.
I would love to know your thoughts on this! Would you take a chance, these days? Is it worth it? There are such opportunities for the new business AND with me getting my college degree in the area I want and have wanted to for so long now! I am not getting any younger mind you. I simply will not have the time to do the college thing if I am working full time. I know myself, I know my limitations. That is not an option for me.
There is still a full time income coming in to the house if I don't work. It is not the amount of my income but, it is an income.
Did I say how much I am longing to work part time or, not at all and going back to college? I so am! More than my words can express. I really want to invest my time and energies in the college and the business! Maybe the business even more so! That is hard for me to admit too! As I write and re-read, I realize just how much I want this new business to succeed and the college courses were a back up to that plan for the future.
So, what would you do?
I will give it over to prayer and to God but, sometimes, I just need a little discussion with friends, or strangers, on things.
Till next time, may God bless and keep you!
Mental out