Yesterday was Easter and, it was a very, very difficult day! I don't want to get into it much as I don't want to open the flood gates again now that I have them closed. It was a day that he and I used to make much ado about including a tradition of going to Sunrise Service. It was something we did every year, as a couple, just he and I and it was always so beautiful. It was awful being alone knowing he was, and is, with someone else, building new traditions and memories.
But, today is a new day. I thank God for having a new day and told Him I am open to all the blessings and possibilities He might bring today and my writing it here is an affirmation of that. I know that it is only with God that I can get thru this. I do hope that the pain and feeling of loss and emptiness pass more quickly than they have been. And too, I pray that God brings me to a place where I am ready for the man He brings to me, if that is His plan and I sure hope it is!