It's Me

Sitting, gazing out the window, my mind drifts to days gone past.
I sigh a heavy sigh, the good times, they never seem to last.
A ghost of a smile plays about my lips, a memory dances just
beyond my finger tips.
I reach out, longing to catch it, to bring it close again.
It flitters away. Alone again, alone since then.
Reaching for the phone, my hand wavers and falls,
longing to hear your voice, empty silence, no one calls.
So many words bottled up inside wanting to tumble
forth and all I can do is stumble, not knowing if you
want to hear them, nor knowing how to shape the emotion
into words that escape me.
How do I show you? How do I make you see?
These stupid words, they don't mean a thing,
not when my heart has forgotten how to sing.
How I long to see your face, to touch you, touching me.
So many miles my love has traveled,
ripping at my heart unraveled.
A tear slips and and falls,
I don't catch it.
Perhaps it's not the end, could it be the beginning
after all?
I don't have the strength to hold on, my soul screams
to you,
catch me, bring me to the safety of your love
and teach me words can be true.
I just want to sleep, simply to forget,
lost in yesterday, aching with regret.
Why didn't I tell you, say the words my heart
begged me to say?
I love you, I need you, I want you, it hurts, I
only wanted you to whisper, please don't go,
it's me, please stay.
Gazing out the window all I can do is cry.
I'm lost, beyond the hows and why,
all I ache for is the soothing comfort of your arms
holding me, showing me there's no more harm.
Help me. Save me. Teach me.
More than all, love me
with a love that I've dreamt of all my life,
never wanting more than just to share
your life.
Remind me how to again believe
for all I know is how love always leaves.
Let your heart with words speak to mine,
whisper it's me and you are mine.
Not for now, not for today, forever,
for all time.
Teach me how to hope, to trust, how to see,
say the words, come home, my love, come
home, it's me.