Thursday, July 29, 2010


After weeks of lemons, God blessed me with 3 miracles this week and I want to thank Him here and now! Thank you God!
A friend that I used to work with called me up. She and her family are moving to FL and since they were driving, she didn't want to pack 'cold/frozen' items. She asked me if I wanted the content of her frig and freezer. Because we literally were out of food, I jumped on the Blessing! Thank you Naomi!! We were able to eat this week because of your kindness and thoughtfulness!
As the week wound down of course my mind again began to spin and swirl with fear and worries about how to feed the 5 of us for the following week. I called our local food bank, Helping Hands, and they provided us with a bag of food. I am sure you all know that for a family of 5, a grocery bag of can goods will not go far however, I was more than thankful for it!
To top it all off, I was awarded food stamps till I find a job! Praise God! That is a HUGE worry from my mind!
So, I go on Monday to see about my unemployment and I am praying for the Bus Driving job that I tested for and was sent on to the next step!!
If you happen by, please send a prayer up to God for my family. And, if you are in a position to do so, please contribute to your local food bank!!

Thank you and...

Mental Out

Thursday, July 22, 2010


Ok, see, this is what I am talking about! Not only did I have the previously mentioned crude happen today but, now, I have a major sinus headache, stomach cramps and the 'crap' that comes with those, literally. Yes, we are adults here and I said crap! That is the mood I am in. I digress..not only the stomach issues but, I burned the heck out of my hand removing the crock pot lid to stir my bean soup! Ouch! Oh, that's not all.... I got summoned for jury duty and a phone call letting me know if my previously owned landscape business didn't come fix some damage to a house, we would be sued!! What damage? What house? What the heck??!! That would be lawsuit number 2 from people who ARE NEVER SATISFIED AND WANT SOMETHING FOR FREE off your back! I am serious! The first lawsuit, our first in 16yrs., and filed AFTER we closed the business and both got laid off, AND by a so-called friend we did some VERY inexpensive work for to help them out, is total and complete BS! Yes, I said it, BS!! I just don't get it!
I am not an unkind person though admittedly I have my moments, don't we all? So, why, why all this terrible stuff being thrown our way? What is the world is God thinking? Only God knows? Well, God needs to give it a rest! Yes, I am talking to God in that tone of voice and I don't apologize for it! He knows I love him and He is my King so, I am confident in being able to tell Him, stop already! I have enough to deal with!! And, get me through this crude and give me some peace for a while! I CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE!
Ok, so, anyone out there? lol Anyone reading this? Probably not. *Heavy sigh*

Mental Out

Hitting Home!

No News On The Job Front

Every day it seems to get worse and worse and I wonder, will I ever catch a break?! I called the staffing company to make an appointment...NO appointments till well into August. OMGshh! Then, I looked in the local newspaper, nothing! I mean NOTHING! Craigslist...NOTHING!
I am lost. I just don't know what to do. I know I have to keep plugging away, keep working at it, keep searching but, it just feels like I am slamming into a brick wall, over and over and over. At least tomorrow is another day.

Mental Out

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

More freakin Lemonade!

Ok, so I went to fill out and application with the temporary service after calling them last week. They told me the hours they took apps and I went in. Well...the office was closed!! I drove a bit of a ways too! I was so mad! Then, came home and the internet, our phone and cable was shut off! Could I call the temp service? NO! Could I send them an email? NO! Could I relax and watch TV? NO!
God, I need a job!!!!!!!!! And, no more lemons, please!!

Mental Out

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Part 1

Ok, so, I went and took the first part of the Bus Driving Application test. A WHOLE lot of paperwork, which I can understand, and an hour long reading/comprehension test. Of course I completed it way before everyone else. I have always done that, I am not sure why. I do read fast but, I over analyse everything so I would think it would make me slower. Oh well. I feel pretty good about it so, now I wait to be notified in writing to see if I go on to the next step. Hire me already! lol
I have to go for my final eye exam today. I don't feel like the problem is corrected tho. My eyes still water terribly and hurt. Guess we will see what the Doc says. We are doing the final exam quickly as I have to get some glasses before my insurance expires in a couple of weeks. No telling how long it will be before I have insurance again.
I am praying for a job today, if you visit, please send a thought for me and my family upstairs to the big guy? Have a Blessed day, ya'll.

Mental Out.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Lemons and Lemonade, enough already!

So, it's been some time since I have been here but, I guess it's time for an update.
Lots of changes, isn't that always the way. I an unemployed again and it really bites! As much as I hated my job and yes, I hated it with a passion, at least I HAD a job. I may not have been the best at it but, I did my best, unlike some, and really tried to do a good job, unlike some. I am not just saying that to say it nor, am I bitter. I got fired for absences. I had good reason(s) for the absences such as family care taking issues, pneumonia, serious eye injury and such. I did not lay out just to lay out. I was absent too much, I know and I wish I could have not been but, I have responsibilities as well that I simply could not get out of.
Again, not to sound witchy or bitter but, there were some that were out WAY more than myself and even bragged about how they could get away with it! Some that stayed shopping on the internet most of the day, or were on FaceBook, or even slept, slept to the point of drooling and snoring!!
The truth is I believe multi- fold, I for some reason was disliked by my supervisor. You know there are just some people you just don't click with. I never received training like most people, never and then when I did take a 'training' class with my unit, and I use the word training lightly, it was done in a large group using power point and done very fast. Just sit at the table, watch the power point and viola' you are trained! NOT! Also, the work load was very, very thin since about Christmas. We simply did not have enough to keep us busy! So, it was an easy way out for them to dump me with a pitiful excuse. No, they are not filling my position...why? Cause they don't have enough work! I think that proves that point!
So, I filed for unemployment, not sure if I will get it and I have begun the job hunting process. I test tomorrow for a bus driver job and I go on Wednesday to register with a temp service. We will see how it goes.
On top of all that, no one else in the house is working either!! WE are so behind in bills and simply can't even afford the bare necessities. Also, got hit with a law suit on a installation that my lawn care folks did...which is so bogus I won't even get into that!
The bottom line is, I know that when life deals you lemons you need to make lemonade but damn it, I am sick of lemonade!! Bring on the champagne for a change!!!

Mental Out