Mondaya!

Grrrrr...I think that God created Monday's only to be the longest days ever! And what's worse, I hate my job!! I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!! It's soooo mindless and boring. And yet, I am thankful that I HAVE a job in today's world. Sad but true.

Every day we live our lives in the constant fear of the unknown...will I be able to pay this bill or that bill, will I have enough for food, for gas to get to work, to make it thru the week, will my job be here tomorrow. I know that God never intended us to live this way and in truth, God tells us not to worry. As a 'good' Christian, I should not worry and yet, as a human being, wife and Mom in this 'real' world we live in today, I can't find a way not to worry. I admit that I live in constant fear and the life I was knew is gone. Not living with constant fear, worry and stress to me is impossible. Yes, I know the illogic of fearing something I have no control over but it is what it is. Living without fear is something I know nothing about. Turning it all over to God, WAY easier said than done and tho I trust in God, believing He is there, when it comes to fear that all goes out the window.

Every morning I drive into work, fighting the maddening traffic and beg God for a new job all the while thanking Him for the one I do have. Pitiful, but true. Who knows, maybe things will change and our prayers will be answered cause I know I surely am not alone in this? Right? lol

Ah well....
Mental out

Opps!!

*ROTFLMBO*

Oh yeah, Happy Birthday to my baby-boy who turns 27 today!! LOL Mommy's priorities are sadly out of whack!

Mental out

Cataclysm!

WOW! Yes, I am saying WOW! I am so excited! For the first time, I will be 'in the game' when a new expansion is born! Not just a player buying the game for the first time but a real-live, part of it all!

The buzz in trade channel is whirling and swirling! Will there be new races? New professions? Worgren? Goblins? Who will get nerfed? Will there be new Heroics? New Achievements? New Battlegrounds? New Spells? Will Druids loose their flight forms? (Speaking as a Druid I certainly hope not!) All new Guild leveling?? OMGshhh!! The list goes on and on and the rumors fly!!

All I can say is....*counting pennies to put in the bank* WHEN? WHEN? WHEN?!!!!

LOL

Mental out

Where does the time go?

Greetings,

In the car this morning coming home from running errands, I had the strangest conversation....with myself. It went something like this:
"Yeah know, you really need to update your blog. It's sadly out of date."
"I know."
"Seriously, you need to update your blog!"
"I know but, what will I blog about?"
"All things new and exciting?"
"Like what?"
"I don't know! What's new and exciting in your life?"
"Nothing."
"Nothing?"
"Nope, nothing."
"Oh come one! There has to be something!"
"Nope, nothing."
"What about work?"
"What about it?"
"Anything new and exciting there?"
"Nope."
"Nope?"
"Nope."
"What about with the family after all, school just started. Any new drama?"
"Nope."
"Nope??"
"Nope."
"Well."
"Well."

Mental out

Ghosts

Isn't it sweetly strange when you have a person that is in your past and you just can't get that person out of your heart or head? Even after time goes by, you still think of that person and perhaps what might of been or questioning yourself if it ever really was. Those are bitter-sweet memories. I am not really sure if I like them or not.
It's especially difficult if there was an unresolved end to the relationship...whatever that relationship may or may not have been. Sometimes, the not knowing is simply the worst there is. How can you even learn a lesson if you don't know what went wrong or why? It just plain hurts and it's a hurt that scars and never ends.
That's really all I can say on this for now...it's still raw after all this time.

Mental out