It's Monday, again.

It's Monday and it's back to work. 5 am came very early this morning. Well, it does every morning but, this morning, I really didn't want to get up and get ready or go to work. It's happening more and more. Ah well, such is life. I am sure it is that way for everyone, for the most part.
I wanted to have something really cool to blog about today but lately my creative juices have not been flowing. It's ok, it happens. I will get in the groove again soon. If you would like, check out some other sites I work on: http://www.mentalnotez.blogspot.com/ and http://www.abcdesignz.blogspot.com/ or my homepage: http://www.mentalnotez.com/ Please bare in mind that I am only a geek-wanna-be and not a full grown geek yet. Somedays I wonder if I will ever grow up and then other days, I don't want to grow up! Ahhhh will I ever learn. LOL
Today Ty gets to stay home on his own, for the first time. Big J is more than a little nervous about this. Let me back up a bit...Ty is my husband and I's youngest of 3. Ty is 11 but, he is a little bit behind mentally than he should be. He can't help it, he's had some issues. Ty is my step-son actually and without going into a lot ot details, he came to live with us about 5 months ago now. Where he lived before....we will just say it was certainly NOT the best environment for a child. It's sad and tragic but, happy days are here for Ty now. (Names have been changed to protect the innocent!) ((I always wanted to say that! LOL))So, Ty is a bit slower than the other 2 creatures we have but, he will be fine. Big J, my hubby, is pretty worried but, he is giving this whole independance thing a shot, starting with today. I am crossing my fingers for him. In 2 weeks, his older terror of a sister will be here with him. I am not too sure that it will be any better for him when she is here. Merkle is 13 and wayyyyy ahead of her years. She lets Ty and everyone else know it as well. I have to give her credit though. she is gooooood sometimes in her....ah...adventures. When she was here for Christmas break, she and her friend snuck into Ty's room during the night. (He sleeps like the dead!) They proceeded to give him a make over, included was the ever popular hair conditioner called 'shaving creme' , hot pink lipstick, lavishly applied to lips AND cheeks, sparkling pink eye shadow and more! Then, the took pictures and posted it for the world to see...Ty in all his glory...on Myspace. I soooo had to restrain myself from just busting a gut laughing when it was time to 'punish' Merkle!

Anyway, I am sure Ty will be fine. It will be a learning and growing experience for him. And, he has all the emergency numbers and good neighbors to call on should something occur. The real threat is when Big J comes home and sees that Ty didn't listen to a word about what chores were to be done. No crossing my fingers on that one...Ty is a goner!

Till next time... God bless and keep you!
Mental

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Mental

Too Much Ghost Hunters?

'There's somethin weird, in the neighborhood' *singing in the tune of GhostBusters song.* Ok, something is going on and I am not sure what. Here's the scoop. Over the last month, or two, I have been awoken from a 'dead' sleep by a knock on my bedroom window. Let me back up and set the stage.
I live in a first floor apartment. There are about 6 buildings in the complex and my building is the back building, my apartment on the corner. Think of a square, I would be located in the left hand, front corner. More of a rectangle actually but, that's neither here nor there.
3 times now, I have been woken up but a loudish knocking on my bedroom window only to find nothing and no one there. I am not dreaming. Let me qualify that, I was dreaming twice when this occured however it brought me out of my dream and the dreams had nothing to do with my window or my bedroom! It is a very clear, very distinct knock and it is clearly a knocking on the window. Think about it, you know the difference between a knock on wood and a knock on glass right? Yes, you do.
Last night, it happened for the third time. Not only did it happen again but, it was louder and more persistant, if you will. I was dreaming, I was not dreaming a particularly good dream but, it didn't have anything to do with my window, a window, a bedroom or a room for that matter. The knocking always occurs between 3 and 4am. Every time this happens, I wake from a very sound sleep and never see anyone there.
Just so you don't think I am totally 'Mental'..lol My husband was awakened on one occasion as well. He heard the knocking as I did, got up, and checked inside and outside only to find nothing. We both wake/woke immediatly and the window is a large, wide, window so, it would be a bit hard to knock and run without being seen.
Last nights event, being more persistent and seemingly louder, scared the ba-jeebies outta me and I am not ashamed to admit it! I woke instantly, I froze, watching for something, someone, anything to explain what was going on. Nothing. Not a hint of a shadow or movement. I am not sure how long I lay there watching, listening, afraid to move or even breath. Finaly, I told myself that I had to get back to sleep and I began to drift off again, opening my eyes for a few last looks and fell back asleep.
Remembering clearly the events upon the alarm going off, I began to question my sanity. I am watching too much Ghost Hunters? I LOVE that show. Have I opened a door that I shouldn't have and inadvertantly? Is my apartment haunted? Is someone, something, trying to get my attention, to tell me something? Am I hearing things? What is going on? I even went as far as calling the complex manager and asking her if there had been any other reports of this strange knocking and told her what had been happening. She is a 'believer' in the paranormal so, she did not think ok, heres a crazy woman. She was very kind, concerned and understanding.
So, where does this leave me? Sleepless in Indiana? I am not sure at this point. Any thoughts anyone?
Till next time....I'll be watching Ghost Hunters and sleeping as I can. Take care friends and don't let the bed bugs bite!
Mental

In a haze

It's the day after the Memorial Day Holiday and as everyone knows, in order to get paid for the Holiday, you gotta work the day after. That's fine, I understand and don't have a problem with it, under normal circumstances. But, for a person who suffers from Crohns Disease, Fibromyalgia, Degenerative Disk Disease and the most incredibly painful migraines, is there a normal circumstance?
You might be thinking dang, this woman is a walking disaster. Yeah, I guess so but, most days, its liveable and some days, it's not even so bad. Then there are days when you just want to curl up, cry and die. It makes you feel alone, lost, the pain is awful and you know that no one understands if they don't suffer as you do. It never ceases to amaze me when people look at you with 'that look' and say things like, you sure do get sick a lot. Yes, unfortunately, I do. I don't like it. I don't want to be sick but, my body is what it is and does what it does. I never used to get sick, not till a few years ago.
I am blessed in that there is one person at my work that understands. She too has Crohns and she emails me notes of support, encouragement and ideas to help. She is the angel that God has sent to this job and I am so thankful for her! Thank you, AK! I appreciate you more than you can imagine. She supports me in many ways and again, I feel so blessed that she is here.
Sometimes it gets overwhelming and you just can't seem to struggle through the day in any way that makes sense. Its so sad when you think of the precious time you loose in the drug induced haze or the pain haze. Those moments are ones that are lost to you and you can't recover. They are moments lost where there were chances to create memories to cherish. So in the days that are 'good days' you fight to make the most of your time; it's almost manic at times to get in everything that you can.
Even as I write this post, I read back and wonder, does this really make any sense? It seems to but I know what pain does to my thought process. It tears it to shreds. I am most careful in these times to try to take everything slow. I don't want to make mistakes and these are the times when they happen most.
Still, today is almost over. I long for the peace that I pray will come when I lay down and close my eyes. Last night that peace did not come. It hurt too much to even lay my head on the pillow but, tonight, I think I will find it and perhaps the recuperating powers of sleep will bless me. Tomorrow is another day.

Still Learning After All These Years!

It never fails to hit me square in the face, just how much I don't know! At 18, I was sure by 45, I would know everything there is to know! There wasn't that much left to learn after all, or so I thought.
Now as I sit here, typing, my mind racing over the day, the past few days and thinking about the days to come, I realize just how much I have yet to learn and how much I want to learn! I have taken on so many new endeavors just by leaping right in and not thinking. Normally, I don't think I am the type of person to do that. Maybe I am wrong in that thinking OR, perhaps it's just that these things happen to be things that I love doing. Or think I would anyway...lol And, now that I have a chance to actually do them, I am running and jumping at full speed ahead and damn the consequences!
I have taken on Blogging for Money, Scrap Set Designing/Selling, Creating a Website, a Personal Blog, and new list on AOL, and opening an online T-Shirt Design shop. Those are in addition to my already overloaded schedule of home, work and online duties.
Do I regret it? Not for a minute! The only thing that bothers me about it is that I don't know all I want to know about all of it! I want to know it all and I want to know it right now! I simply have no patience. For myself or others, much to my regret.
So, the bottom line is, I will blunder through it all, learn as I make mistakes and rely on my friends to help me out. Works for me!
Why is it that as our lives move into the middle years and edge into the end years, we discover just how much life and the world have to offer? When we want to know, learn and grow, our bodies are just starting to rebel and wanting to slow down. Our minds start to say, "Hey, I want to take a nap now!" but, our drive and lust for life just starts kicking into high gear! Seems hardly fair at all. I believe the only saving grace in that is when we get to Heaven, we won't have the restricts of a worn body or mind, we will finally get to live the life we want, in our own rights and according to each his/her own. As for me, I plan to have plenty of chats with God about his/her sense of humor and a few other sore spots and then, leave me to my country cottage while I create, read, love, laugh and live!